I’ve been having ups and downs for the last couple of years, a lot of good things have happened, but the downs were concerning me. I’m a very strong person. I usually don’t let much get in my way, but man these last few years have been rough mentally and physically. I have had many low low moments that were very scary. I found myself hitting rock bottom at one point. I kept telling my family that I have not idea what is going on. I don’t understand why I feel the way I feel. I’m so grateful for my family for helping me get through it. I have an amazing husband and amazing kids. I’m one lucky women. It really got worse this past November of 2013. I had a bad episode of numbness and weakness in my arms and legs. Of course my first thought was that I had can cancer again. This was how it all started in 2006. I went to my doctor who sent me to get my neck scanned. I knew immediately that something was up when he called me and told me to see a neurosurgeon, specifically the one I saw back in 2006, immediately. A long story short…I found my awesome surgeon who was amazing during my time in 2006, Dr. Beshay. At the time he was in his residency. He has since opened up his own practice here in Dallas!! We were reunited!!
I knew I was in good hands. He reassured me that it wasn’t cancer, but he didn’t know what it was. He asked me to go see a Neurologist. He sent me to Dr. Salmon who he said he would send his wife too if he needed one. Which comforted me. I’ve seen lots and lots of doctors that just put me on more medicine. I’m tired of medicine. At first I was worried that this doctor wasn’t listening to me. You know when you talk to some doctors and you can’t tell if they are really paying attention…well that is how I felt until he said that he wanted my head scanned and my nerves tested. YES!! Finally a doctor that believes me!! I’ve been telling so many doctors that I just don’t feel good, but with good blood work and scans from Utah they said I was fine. So on we went to do the nerve testing, which wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be, and then the brain MRI.
With the way insurance did things, I ended up going to Utah for my annual Bone Scan, MRI, and CT. Of course everything came out good. They said that my numbness if probably what they call late effects from one of my chemo’s. Sure. It was possible. I’ll take it…it wasn’t cancer!! Onto home I went to then get my MRI that Friday. It was about another week when my neurologist called informing me of the new diagnosis of MS. I wanted to know why he thought MS. I never even thought of it being that. Ever. The next day I sat in his office discussing what it was, why it is, and what my life will be like. I have 10 spots on my brain and the lesion in my neck, all demyelination. OH…I remember that word!! In the very beginning of my cancer journey Randy wrote on this blog that they were thinking it was a autoimmune of some sorts like MS. Who knew!! Here it is 7 years later and coming up again. Wow. I just kept thinking to myself “Is this really happening to me?’ “Can I handle these daily injections?”. I didn’t know much about MS. Only that Montel Williams has it and a lady I served with once a while ago had it. I knew that this is something that wasn’t going to kill me. I knew that many live a full life with it. I really didn’t have any questions at the time. I just wanted to leave his office and come home to take it all in.
Speaking of modern medicine. I have been looking at several different “natural” ways of healing and have talked with a few people that have gone the “all natural” way. I appreciate their openness and all of your ideas. I’ll keep my mind open, but for now I’m going to do these shots. I will still read about other remedies for the future. Right now I’m just getting use to the thought of this. I’m a busy mom that needs to stay busy and focused on raising my family. I can’t thank all my family and friends that have been by my side through not only my cancer, but my crazy mind moments, and now through this new diagnosis. Thank you for being there to help me laugh and allow me to cry.